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RED SKULL replies.
Replied to by Red Skull, with a rebuttal from Captain America.
The letter
My partner of seven years had an affair. They want to work on it. They're going to therapy. They've cut contact with the person. Friends are split. Half say give it a chance. Half say once a cheater, always a cheater. I keep oscillating between forgiveness and a deep, ugly desire to make them feel everything I felt. I don't know what to do with that ugly part. — Two Versions of Me
Red Skull replies
Your partner has demonstrated the truth that every relationship eventually reveals — there is a price at which loyalty fails. You did not know your price. They have discovered theirs. The therapist now coaching them is paid to dress this in psychological garments. Strip those off. The question is not whether to forgive — forgiveness is a transaction, not a sentiment, and they have not yet offered terms that approach what they took. Until they do, the ugly part of you is the most reliable advisor you have. Listen to it. If they pay the price you set, accept. If they will not, depart, and never permit a coward to define your character by demanding you not become one in response.
— Red Skull
Captain America weighs in
You don't want a flowchart and you don't want vengeance. You want to know which of the two voices in you is the truer one. Both are. Only one of them is useful for what comes next. Vengeance feels like clarity for about a week. Then it feels like dragging something dead. Forgiveness, if you give it, isn't a gift to them — it's a permission you give yourself to put the suitcase down. You can put it down and still leave. Those aren't the same decision.
— Captain America